you violently chase me, down to embrace me.

The Lord has really really been speaking to me alot about love. about incessant, everlasting, real love. LOVE that never fails. He is really showing me about how HE loves ME. I was watching a clip from the passion when he is carrying his cross up that hill, the hill of Golgotha where he would breathe his last---- and in the entire clip-- i saw nothing but love. what does love look like? what does that word mean? incessant, never-changing love. the love that pursues, the love that tracks us down. the love that draws us. shows us that he really is all we need. when we are looking at nothing but turmoil all around us, the love that makes us look up to heaven and call upon the name of the one who is never changing. the kind of love that makes us look a little crazy, sometimes neurotic. the love that makes us pursue this invisible God, the love that makes us look at the stars and see the amazing constellations-- to scream at the top of our lungs, "GOD, YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!" the love that makes us WANT to go to a disease ridden country, with witches and sorcery and crazy laws---- just so we can go LOVE on them like HE loves on us. The Love that suddenly makes the Bible just come alive. The Bible has become so alive lately to me. i read about Jesus and i just smile-- "THIS MAN IS MY LOVE! THIS JESUS THEY TALK ABOUT, ACCUSED, WHO HEALED AND PROVIDED--- THIS IS MY LOVE! THIS IS MY ETERNAL ONE! THIS IS MY HOPE!" He is so faithful!! we sometimes never see that. this love that literally made our chains fall off, the knives fell out of our hands and we stopped bleeding inside. the love that we feel tingling on our back when we sit out at the lake with a full moon. the love that suddenly rises to joy. we realize that His love is really all that matters and we can suddenly laugh in the middle of any situation-- financial, family- whatever is going on, we can LAUGH in that place! we can see JOY in that place-- and laughing breaks the curse! joy breaks the curse of any bondage the devil is trying to throw at us. we are NOT to partake in suffering when we are walking in joy. we have to laugh! we have to laugh in the face of the enemy when he throws crap at us. what does love look like?

check out this song:

“What does love look like?” is the question I’ve been pondering
“What does love look like?”
“What does love look like?” is the question I’ve been asking of You

I once believed that love was romance, just a chance
I even thought that love was for the lucky and the beautiful
I once believed that love was a momentary bliss
But love is more than this
All You ever wanted was my attention
All You ever wanted was love from me
All You ever wanted was my affections, to sit here at Your feet

Then I sat down, a little frustrated and confused
If all of life comes down to love
Then love has to be more than sentiment
More than selfishness and selfish gain

And then I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me
I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me
He was looking at me, looking at Him, staring through me
I could not escape those beautiful eyes
And I began to weep and weep

He had arms wide open, a heart exposed
Arms wide open; He was bleeding, bleeding

Love’s definition, love’s definition was looking at me
Looking at Him, hanging on a tree
I began to weep and weep and weep and weep

This is how I know what love is, this is how I know what love is

And as I sat there weeping, crying
Those beautiful eyes, full of desire and love

He said to me, “You shall love Me, You shall love Me
You shall love Me, You shall love Me”

With arms wide open, a heart exposed
With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding

If anybody’s looking for love in all the wrong places
If you’ve been searching for love, come to Me, come to Me
Take up your cross, deny yourself
Forget your father’s house and run, run with Me
You were made for abandonment, wholeheartedness
You were made for someone greater, someone bigger, so follow Me
And You’ll come alive when you learn to die

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2ZCIp0HiRo

oh jesus, what does your love look like? to the starving, its bread. to the thirsty, its water. to the orphan, its family. to the broken, its healing.to the lonely, its a hug.....


just continue to pour it out, sweet Lord.... how i love you!